deidre’s now been through several sets of discipline alternating between the flogger and the strap. she has my marks - bruises and welts - over most of her body.

I enjoy giving her sets of 20 – 30 strokes gradually increasing the hardness of the blows until I can tell that she is at her threshold. Then I leave her for a bit sobbing onto the rug, only to return after a short time to begin again. This way she’s able to take quite a bit more, but also has time to feel the psychological effects of knowing what is to come and imagining how much more she will take before breaking.

she did finally beg for mercy. Those words being screamed in between sobs and whimpers are lovely. Even more so because I know how difficult it is for her to admit that she can’t take any more. Usually I will continue after she begs just a dozen or so more strokes but tonight she’d already been through enough.

I considered having her spend one more night in the cage but decided that instead she would benefit more from sleeping safe and loved in my arms.

Once deidre had come “back” we spoke a little about how she felt and if she feels she received what she needed. deidre will probably elaborate on this more when she writes her own entry about it, but I think she was excited about the movie and got a little carried away with her imagination. she does that sometimes.

So, yes, she was missing something, but it wasn’t anything that a regular discipline session couldn’t have given her. she is not the kind of girl who can take this kind of use all of the time, nor handle long periods of dehumanization. As much as she would like to, she craves love and affection much too much. But that still does not prevent her from occasionally longing for harsh treatment to keep her centered. As her Master, I in turn must understand her need both for tenderness as well as occasional sadistic use and be able to give my property both in a balance that will keep her focused on her purpose. Service to and pleasure of her One.

For those of you who expressed your concern, yes, she is now allowed to eat regular food, drink fluids other than my piss, is not damaged in any way, and is actually being fairly close to her normal self albeit a bit on the calm side.

Those of you who are slaves know what that feeling is like.

Thanks for sharing this last couple of days with us. And thanks to those of you who shared your comments both on livejournal and to me via my personal e-mail. For the two of us it’s been both work and fun, and you can be sure that we will be doing this again.

ML

My pet has now taken my water half a dozen times, and has consumed quite a bit of her Master's golden liquid. I believe she is to the point where she could not hold any more even if forced.

I have taken her out for another doggy potty break and allowed her to pee.

she is now lying in a tight kneeling position on a very uncomfortable jute rug wtih her wrists and ankels both handcuffed together and those sets of cuffs attached to each other by a short chain. she is also wearing a thick rubber gag to muffle her cries and screams.

I’ve decided to increase the intensity of our sessions a bit. Since this entire thing is happening at her request and because of a deep need within her I’ve left the end time up to her. I’ve given her the option of begging for mercy whenever she feels she has reached the state of mind she was searching for. My goal is to bring her there tonight.

I know that deidre will hold out as long as possible. It’s a matter of pride with her, attempting to be as pleasing as possible. That pride allows her to go far beyond my expectations.

ML

I have just allowed my pet her first drink of the day.

I usually drink water or tea pretty much continually throughout the day, and so once I start urinating it is not only a process that requires a constant series of trips to the bathroom, but one that ensures a strong steady stream. So she should be taking my water fairly often this afternoon.

I have trained my pet to take just the tip of my cock in her mouth and wait for my stream to begin. Once it does so, she is trained to swallow all I can give her without spilling any.

Of course, if she does, there are consequences.

It is quite wonderful, standing over her with her wrists crossed behind her back and my cock in her mouth, watching her work hard to take all of the stream that is coming into her mouth. And quite a good feeling to know that I am giving her something from my body in one of her openings that is always available to me.

I am pleased that during this, her first drink of the day, she took all I could give her without any spills.

She will have many more opportunities to repeat her performance before her day is finished.

Right now I already feel the need to give her some more.

As I said, pretty wonderful.

ML

After running some errands, I came home and let my pet out of the crate and took her outside to allow her to urinate. Again, she squatted in the grass like a little doggy until she was done pissing, and then I led her back inside.

I have decided to allow her some time out of the crate as she needs to stretch out somewhat. So, I ordered her into the bathroom and had her kneel on the mat and closed the door on her. She has instructions that should she hear my coming towards the bathroom and see the door opening, she should come to attention on her knees with her wrists crossed behind her back and her head up with her mouth open and ready for my water.

I am not yet ready to give her some, but am drinking plenty of tea and should have another update for you shortly.

Can you say: "AHHH"?

ML

Well, deidre has spent her first night in the crate, and I am sure that she did not get much sleep. The crate is sized for a large breed of dog, but even so it is pretty cramped for any human, even a normal sized female such as she. So, by the time I cam to let her out this morning, she found it difficult to stand up and had to remain hunched over as I clipped the leash on her collar and took her into the back yard to go to the bathroom.

I have had a suggestion or two about how I might go about arranging her session, and, yes, I had thought about using diapers. However, the purpose of this little exercise is to not only take away her slave status, but to also take away anything that gives her a semblance of humanity and turn her, for a brief time, into the animalistic owned pet that she really is. So, allowing her the use of a diaper would be giving her some human consideration that is inappropriate and also allows her to avid having to hold her output until I allow her to expel. Taking her out for an occasional break is the better way to handle it, I think.

And I quite enjoy having my pet on my leash as she squats in the grass like a little doggy pissing on the ground. You will remember that my pet has not had food all day yesterday nor anything to drink since 5 pm last evening. So, while she had to urinate, I imagine that will be the last time until she starts drinking again.

As for any intake during this session, she will only be allowed to drink and eat what she can elicit from my cock. And she knows this, which is why she is avoiding admitting she is thirsty until she is absolutely parched.

Once back inside I placed her back in the crate while I attended to a few things, and then prepared for her first discipline session. Notice I said first, for there will be three or four today. I set up the electric winch I have in our florida room with a small 6" cross bar that has and eye hook in the middle and one on each end. I attached the middle eye hook on the cross bar to the winch hook, and then clipped a small carabiner to each of the end eyes. Taking a spandex hood with a built in blindfold and the suspension cuffs into the laundry room, I opened my pet's cage and ordered her to crawl out and kneel in front of the door. I then gave her the hood and ordered her to put it on so that it was comfortable for her. Then I ordered her to raise each wrist in succession while I buckled the suspension duffs on her.

I then allowed her to stand up, or at least stand up as well as she could, and lead her over underneath the winch. I raised her arms and clipped the rings on the suspension cuffs to the carabiners on the cross bar. Taking the switch control box, I then activated the winch and drew her up until she was fully suspended with just the tips of her feet touching the floor. Once she was fully suspended, I turned the winch off and secured her ankles with a pair of stainless ankle cuffs.

Once my pet was properly hung, I took the long flogger and worked her over with it for several minutes, making sure to hit that very sensitive spot right about her waist in the middle of her back, as well as the tender area on the backs of her knees. I also gave quite a number of hard strokes on her ass just to ensure that the marks would be visible for quite a while. I did not use the flogger on her front as I do not wish to have the flogger tails entwine her nipple or labia rings and cause damage.

I then left her hanging and crying while I took the dogs out for a walk.

After I returned from walking the dogs, about 15 minutes or so, I took a small leather flogger (must easier to control) and work over my pet's front, paying special attention to the top and undersides of her breasts, her inner thighs just outside of her labia rings. By the time I was done with this little flogging she was crying unreservedly, the only sound she could make since she is on speech restrictions.

After I was done, I lowered her down, removed the ankle and wrist cuffs, lead her back to her crate, had her kneel and remove her hood, and then ordered her back into the crate. She is there now, softly sobbing and wondering what I have in store for her next.

Remember, folks, that while I do not consider myself an unduly cruel owner, there is always a part of me that enjoys using my pet in a harsh manner. The fact that she also needs this kind of use on occasion is just part of the very healthy dynamic between owner and pet.

To paraphrase Mel Brooks as Louis XVI in 'History of the World - Part 1":

~ It's GOOD to be Master! ~

ML

For those of you who are following deidre's session:

- she has been allowed to fast all day today (Sunday) and has not had any liquids after about 5 pm.
- she finished her regular work as a phone sex operator about midnight our time and was allowed to sign off.
- she tidied up the bedroom and completed several tasks around the house in anticipation of her being unable to do so tomorrow.
- she then moved her dog crate into the laundry room so that she can be isolated from the rest of my household as much as possible.
- I allowed her to place inside the crate one blanket and a small pillow as well as the usual dog bed sized cushion that she uses when caged. She is, of course, naked with the exception of her collar and cuffs.
- I then had her crawl into her crate and kneel facing the door while I advised her she was now on speech restrictions, would only be referred to as 'doggy' and would not be allowed out to use the bathroom until tomorrow morning when I will take her and the dogs out.

Locking the crate door, I then turned out the light and closed the door to the laundry room.

Tomorrow will be a very intense day for her, and I am sure she will spend most of the night awake thinking about what might be in store.

Until tomorrow,

ML

Good Evening all.

Although I am unsure how wise it is to be placing a post on Friday the 13th, deidre has advised me that it is now three weeks since I placed my first entry on livejournal. So, perhaps it really is time, the date notwithstanding.

There are quite a number of topics I would enjoy writing about, some of which would be very interesting. Once issue, for example, is the very real distinction between a slave being collared versus wearing a collar. Or perhaps a discussion of whether or not the submissive is in really in control of the relationship. How about, for those who would care to read about it, my own discovery of dominant aspects of my personality? Perhaps we might also look into the responsibilities of a Master versus those of the slave.

All sorts of fun things to consider. And this weekend and early next week might be just the time to do so.

For those of you who follow my pet’s livejournal, you have seen her entry concerning her reactions to the movie ‘Secretary’ that I allowed her to watch last evening. After hearing about this film from others over the years, she was expecting to find some parts (most notably, the spanking scene) very erotic and compelling. While she (and I) did enjoy that scene, I think she was surprised at exactly which part of the movie called to her the most and evoked the most emotional response from her as a result.

For those of you who are familiar with deidre through her on line persona, this probably will not come as a surprise. My pet is, as I have stated many times, a very natural submissive and the most perfect slave any Master could hope for. So for her to watch and be moved is pretty much to be expected.

What neither she nor I expected was her realization that she had been craving something and did not realize it until she analyzed her reactions to the film. And ended up with her posting the comment she did on livejournal.

So, understanding what she needs and the kind of use she wants, I am scheduling a session for her starting this weekend.

Saturday evening after her work is done, I will allow her to have an enema or two to ensure she is clean and empty. Then she will be allowed only liquids on Sunday. This emptying and fasting will prepare her for what is in store for her once her work is finished late Sunday night, at which time she will be incommunicado for a significant period of time.

I will have her write about her activities and thoughts both Saturday and Sunday as she prepares herself for what is to come. Once she is no longer able to make entries herself, I will update my own journal and copy hers as to what she is being allowed to experience and in doing so perhaps address some of those topics I would like to touch upon.

And then when her session is over, I will have her describe both what was done with her as well as her reactions. I am sure you will find it interesting and informative reading.

So, stay tuned for the next few days, and I trust you will enjoy reading what is placed here as much as I and she will writing it.

deidre’s owner,

Master Lee

Mastery over a slave and her submission to her Master is very much a mental process, about 99.9% of the time. For many slaves their mental devotion to their Master and delight in serving Him seem to them so complete that they do not see an obvious need for anything beyond the bond they share their Master. However, for many if not most, there can be much, much more to this coupling.

The physical aspects (bondage, discipline, punishment) can accompany a slave's mental submission as something extra, possibly to satisfy a Master's desires, usually to emphasize training and control, but most certainly to increase the slave's feelings of gratitude for being with someone who enables her to realize her deep inner needs. In many cases a slave comes to need the physical side of her submission to highlight and increase her already extreme feelings of submissive self. When this happens and a slave is allowed to come to the point of 'subspace', she taps into a very primitive level of sexual and mental arousal as well as an extreme vulnerability and dependence on another, her Master. This is when the magic happens, and her mind opens so that her Master has a direct pipeline into her subconscious.

Obviously, such a connection poses a great responsibility for a Master, but a great opportunity as well. With careful manipulation of a slave in this state, old wounds and traumas can be examined and reversed, cares and concerns recognized and dealt with, and a result obtained that is a great mental soothing for the slave. In this exchange the Master can enable his slave to build her self esteem as she is allowed to realize it is not only that her Master has this kind of power over her but that in exercising it she becomes very rare and valuable to Him. she comes to know that she is His treasure and He is proud of her because of the most intimate relationship possible, that of Master and slave.

This kind of connection, this genuine union, provides the slave with an intimacy and serenity that no vanilla female would ever dream of, much less experience.